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Hello,

I write to you out of ennui from waiting for a client to see me for a meeting.  I just had the sudden urge to write you and tell you how I truly feel for you.

I loved you before and I love you still.  It pains me knowing that you do not feel the same way for me anymore.  How I miss your laughter, your sense of humor, the way you’d tease me about my game of tongits, the way you drive, your text messages that depict love and longing.  How I wish I could just close my eyes and travel back in time for me to experience again the kind of love that you had for me once.  I thought that the love you had for me was real but now I believe that I was just a novelty to you, a challenge, just like the sports that you play oh so well.

But despite everything, I still love you and I will continue loving you.  I have always hoped that one day, you’d realize that my love for you is too strong to just throw away.  That’s the only thing I can do at this point in my life - hope.  Hope that one day, you’d come back with true love for me in your heart and in your mind.  For the meantime, I will just have to be contented with being with you in my dreams.

This letter can never be sent as I know that things are different now.  I will keep all the letters that I have written for you, in the hopes that you’d be able to read it someday, when we’re together at last or at least until I find the right person to love me for who I am and for what I can offer.

I know that you are having a grand time at work and in life and I am no longer a part of that life.  I wish I could say that I am happy for you but how can I when I feel dead knowing that you are basking or will be basking in the arms of someone else.  Soon, I know, I can let go of the feeling without the bitterness but please allow me to grieve for a while.   I can never go back to the place I once considered my 2nd home because I know that the memories we left there are just too painful to bear. 

I will be praying for you always, and when Fate gets to bring us back together again, I know I’d be able to smile because I know at one point in my life, you were a part of it.

Be well.  I love you.

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