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I woke Friday morning with a slight pain in my right knee.  When I went to the bathroom to prepare for work, i saw a really large "pasa" and wondered how I got it.  Then I remembered my badminton game Thursday night and I accidentally hit my right knee trying to return a smash. 

I have been playing badminton for almost three years now.  I used to think na larong kalye lang ang badminton until I was able to play on a real court.  I used to weigh a really hefty 145 lbs.  Pumayat pa ko ng lagay na yun.  But after playing 2 days for 2 straight hours for the first two months, I realized that I was beginning to lose around 5 - 10 lbs which is no small feat, considering that I have been going on and off diets.  I decided to make a "career" out of it and I began to like it.  Eating out was no longer a problem as I know I can still burn it at night by playing at least 2 hours non-stop.  Not only did I lose a lot of weight.  I’m down to 103 lbs by just playing badminton (I recently enrolled in a gym just to make sure I maintain my weight and figure) I also met a lot of friends, enemies (hehehe) and I have learned that indeed, if you have the determination, you can achieve anything.

You can say I owe it to the sport.  I am still very much an amateur player albeit my 2-yr relationship with badminton.  I have yet to learn the footwork (may bakal po ang hita ko), the hits (wrist ang ginagamit, iha, hindi yung braso), the smashes (hit it from above).  I still long for the day when I can join tournaments and prove my worth.  That day will come soon.  And when that day comes, I will be ready to embrace it.

Hmmm, I think I have another hematoma on my left hand that I presumed came from another game with another group. But I’m glad.

My bestfriend and I had dinner the other night and were discussing things at work when she suddenly blurted out that her officemates seem to gang up on her.  She has done everything that she could, from apologizing profusely to talking to her teammates but to no avail.  Knowing how nice she is, I understand where she’s coming from but as I always say, different strokes for different folks.  You can’t please everybody.

She wanted to share her sentiments with me as she knew that I was going thru the same thing.  But the difference is that I have practiced the art of "deadma".

I used to be Ms. Amity, Ms. Congeniality, Friendship and there was a time they called me Popular Girl because of the so many friends I have.  It seems that I was a friend to everyone, small, big, rich, poor, and the list goes on.  But alas, all things must come to an end.  I learned in time that there are friends who are friends only when they need you and when they don’t need you anymore, they ditch you and dump you like a hot potato.  I have cried endlessly thinking of the efforts that I used to exert just to win them back…but as I said I have learned and I am coming back, with a silent vengeance.

I now keep a shield around me.  Sure, you would still see me around the corner, smiling, talking to people, giving solicited advice but I am now more wary of the people around me.  I carefully choose friends to keep and I am trying to keep it to a minimum.  And more importantly, when I hear things that aren’t exactly to my liking, just shrugging my shoulders and walking away has been my way of warding off nasty talks and the nasty people that spread them.

Reality is you cannot please everybody.  Some may have a very limited capacity to understand and to reach out to people.  I am very sensitive, true.  But keeping a shield around me has helped me cope with the negative elements surrounding me. I have heard others saying how bitchy I could be instead of outspoken, uber sensitive instead of understanding, "mayabang" instead of assertive.  But all things said, I have practiced the art of not minding what people have to say and just go on with life as if I heard nothing.  So what? Sila ba ang nagpapakain sa kin?  Mamamatay ba ko pag di nyo ko pinansin?  Sticks and stones may break my bones but words will never hurt me.  Say all you want but I am still keeping my head up high.  I am outspoken, assertive and confident.  Leave it at that.

So to you, friend, just do what you have to do.  We all breathe the same air anyway.  Mapapagod din ang mga yan, pero maganda ka pa rin….:) Gets?

Another boring working week has passed.  Gosh, I would really, really want a massage!  Grabe, sakit ng ng katawan ko, sakit pa ng utak ko.  Yes, hooray, hooray, nagagamit ko rin pala ang utak ko kahit papano.  Been squeezing my brains out for sales strats, proposals (both decent and indecent, hehehe) and how to balance my life altogether.  No wonder, they have been calling me manang this past few weeks.  I have been irritable for like most of the week and I, myself, can’t figure out why.  Must be the age.

Hmmm…what have I been up to lately.  Let’s try to sum it up and see if I do have a life.

Saturday, went out with badminton buddies, had dinner and coffee and chilled out at 19 East.  Catching up with each other’s lives seemed to lighten me up a bit.  Sobrang dami ng kwento.  Got home at around 2am and caught up with my sister to watch a couple of dvds. 

Sunday, family day it is.  Woke up, went to the market, slept, had lunch, walked a little, and slept again. Woke up, watched Will and Grace, Harry Potter and guess what I did after that…:)

Monday to Thursday, had to contend with rowdy clients, a lame paranoia, and a couple of morons who think they can control the whole world.  Going to the gym seems to be the only logical activity that I have.  I’m so beginning to love aero, treadmills, bench and not to mention the trainors (hehehe). Good de-stresser, if you’d ask me.  Was crying and laughing at the same time (this is bad…really bad!)  Ang hirap din ng papangakuan ka ng kliyente tapos di naman bibili.  I will now treat the sales ladies at the tiangge with more respect and consideration.

Friday, I thought everything would settle down by the weekend.  Dead wrong.  All reports, may saysay o wala, had to be submitted.  Day before badminton tournament and had to cancel out the last minute due to changes in schedules.  Nasayang ang bago kong raketa, huhuhu. Our once in a lifetime General Staff meeting was held Friday and I felt the urge to go to the gym rather than attend GSM.  Turned out I had a very special citation:  Exemplary Attendance.  Ironic, isn’t it?  Had a special award for attendance and turned out that I was not even there to accept it.  Felt guilty and went back to accept my award and catch the last part of the event.  Got another spa certificate which is adding up to my waiting-to-be-used certificates.(kailan, o kailan?) Wanted to watch the Corpse Bride but it turned out that two of my friends had to back out.  Twas really okay to watch it alone but since I attended the GSM, might as well stay for more chika.  Got home earlier than expected with my “pabaon” spaghetti and pizza leftover.  Shared the meal with mommy, Ate Belen (who looks so much better now) and An-an while watching Sassy Girl.  Dozed off in the middle of my crossword puzzle and woke up with all the other members of the family gone to sleep.  Decided to watch my new CSI dvds and as usual, slept in the middle of watching it.

So I guess, you know by now how my life is at work and at home.  Pretty pathetic, isn’t it?  But m not complaining.  Just hoping to have a little spice in my life soon.  Really, really soon.